Warning...

It's no secret that I want children. That has NEVER in my life been a secret. Even as a little girl, I longed for a family with lots of children. Now as an adult I would love 2 or 3, but I might be content with 1. Now Mark... he's content with our life the way it is now, but he was also very excited earlier this year when we found out we were expecting, and he was very sad when we lost the baby. He tells me often he's just along for the ride.


I am not looking to start a debate on medical treatments for infertility. I completely believe that is between a couple and God. In the daily devotion book Mark and I are reading together this mornings, "Moments for Couples who Long for Children" this very thing was addressed today. Some people will argue that seeking medical treatments shows a lack of faith. Is it a lack of faith to go to the doctor for antibiotics for strep throat? Or chemo for cancer? Or a cast for a broken arm? I really don't believe so. God has allowed us to live in a time where this technology is available. I do agree that we need to seek God's direction in utilizing the available technology. Each embryo that is created is a life, and that each life needs to be honored and protected. Our faith must be in God. He is the creator of life. He may use the hands of a doctor to do so, but ultimately it is in HIS hands.


We have prayed about this, and at this time feel at peace about doing one more treatment cycle this year. We will continue to pray for direction, and covet your prayers as well. If this is not God's will for us, I want the door to be very clearly shut. As things stand right now, the bulk of the finances for this cycle are in order. The timing works out very well for my job, and is getting better by the day for Mark's.


With all of this said, unless the gate is closed, we will be hopping on the roller coaster ride of treatment in the next couple of weeks. As a reader of this blog, you have an invitation to ride along with us. That's where the warning comes in. For those of you who were not along for the ride on the last roller coaster, I must caution you-- It is not pretty. You may learn things that are not for the faint of heart. Things you really may not want to know, like periods and sperm count. However I will be sharing it all.

As you ride along with us on this roller coaster, I do have something to ask of you. While I do understand that I am sharing intimate details of my life in what could be a very public way. I am happy to answer questions that you might have, but I do ask that you respect our privacy especially in sharing our intimate details (and hopefully announcements) with other people, especially our family members that don't read this blog. I do need an outlet to talk through these feelings, emotions and experiences, but the last thing I want is to feel I need to justify myself to someone else.

One last thing--please make sure your safety belt is securely latched, and hands and feet are inside the ride at all times!