I had a big one!

Does that title sound wrong or what? We left yesterday and went to Boise to stay overnight, because I had an 8:00 appointment at the Doctor's office. I had an ultrasound. One ovary looked just like it did last month, and the other ovary had the same little follicles, and one great BIG follicle. The doctor was very pleased with that. He gave us some options, and we chose to have me take a shot to ensure the follicle ruptures to release the egg. (The rupturing is a normal part of a woman's cycle, it's not scary like it sounds!) So now we wait.... It will be about 2 weeks, give or take a few days, before we know anything else. I'm really praying for this one. If it works, the baby will be do December 1.

Awwwww

As we were leaving Walmart yesterday, there was a very cute little Pooh umbrella stroller. It was only $13 and we couldn't resist! So we bought it. Tonight Mark and I were watching TV, and he saw the stroller in the corner. He turned to me and said, "Honey, I want a baby. Do we really have to wait 9 months, or is there a fast button?" It was just so touching to me. We decided we were ready to have kids a year and a half ago, but I think that was more at my desire than his. He has said he was ready, but never that it was really what he wanted. It just warms my heart! I really want this to work!!! Have I said that yet? We have a folicle check at the doctors office on Monday morning. So we'll go to Boise Sunday evening so we can be there for the appointment at 8:00 am.

Planning Ahead??

Well, I hope I'm not setting myself up for failure. We went to Wal-mart tonight and put a couple of things on lay-away. Namely a very, very cute Pooh playpen and a stroller/carseat/carrier combo. They had a matching swing and high chair too. But I decided we didn't need $375 in lay-away. We have 2 months to get it off of lay-away, and it is no risk, so we can get our money back. They were just on sale, so we decided to jump on it. This excites me and scares me all at once. I really want this first cycle of clomid to do the trick...

Emotional Afternoon

My mom came to visit me this afternoon at work. She told me that my sister mentioned to her that my new doctor wanted to know what type of ovarian cancer my mom died of. She then told me what hospital to call to see if they still had records. It happened to be the same building that I'm going to, to see my new doctor. It was such a flood of emotions as I sat on hold with them thinking that I'm going to the same place for infertility treatments that my mom went to for cancer treatments. I lost it at work. I HATE THAT!

Clomid Crazies have set in.

Since our first appointment I was feeling very optomistic. I haven't cried since before that appointment. (I was a bit out of control before then.)

Now tonight the crazies set in. I started crying out of the blue. No real reason. Just part of the roller coaster I guess. The folicle check ultrasound is in 6 days. We should have a little bit of a better picture then.

There has to be a balance between crying for no reason, and having my hopes up too far.

UGH!

That's It! My hopes are up.

Yesterday I was going to go use a coupon for Joann fabrics that was about to expire to get some fleece to make a blanket for one of our nephews that has a birthday coming up. While I was looking through the flyer, they had a very cute set Classic Pooh bedding patterns. So when we went into the store, Mark said he thought we should do our someday nursery in Classic Pooh, because that would work well for either a girl or a boy. I really do enjoy seeing him excited about the process. But that also helped get my hopes up even more. I really want to keep my feet grounded. This is only the first round of treatment, and it will be at least 3 weeks before we know if it worked.

Anyway, the bedding patterns were on normally $7 each (there were 4 different patterns) but they were on sale for $0.99 each, so we had to buy each of them. I also got a little bit of fabric to use on a project I've been working on this weekend. I have re-glued, and cleaned up and painted a little rocking chair I had as a child. It's now a little yellow rocking chair with a light green Classic Pooh chair pad.

Good thing I don't have my hopes up or anything. I pray this treatment works....

Roller Coaster Continues...

Well, I followed the Dr's direction and called at the first sign that one of the medications did what it was supposed to. So now in I start the 2nd medication. It's called Clomid. It's the typical first stop for infertility treatments for most couples. On March 7, we will travel back to Boise for a "folicle check" to see if that dose of Clomid did what was needed. If that is true, then we will enter "The Two Week Wait."

I really am trying not to get my hopes up too high for this round of treatment. But I really do hope this works. Our insurance doesn't cover infertility treatments, so I am a bit scared of the costs.

Our Journy Begins

Well, we have been moved into our new home for 3 months now, and as some may already know, we have decided to try to increase the size of our family. We actually decided that quite some time ago, but nature hasn't cooperated with our plans. So today we had our first appointment with a specialist in Boise. Now the journey begins. We decided on a plan with the doctor, and he precribed a couple of medications to help get things going. As I was taking the first pill, I told Mark, "This starts the rollercoaster, Hop On!!"